Hi bloggers,

It's weird Mel here. I don't want to go into too many details , but I am going through a family crisis right now. A long running crisis. The amazing part of day today was that I realized it isn't going to stay that way. But I have to be bold and make the first move.

The ones you love most can hurt you most, but in away I am grateful. I need a kick in the but to change and scram out of here.

I felt my heart rip and decimate, it was terrible. But all the same, it couldn't have been a more wonderful event , because I now I know it isn't going to stay this way for long.

I am getting away from family's ongoing tragedy , and making my own story.

The one I have desperately needed for along time.

The story where I finally get to be me.

I don't want to forget how painful today was , it was the most terrible and wonderful feeling ever. It was the feeling of change. Qe sera , old life , you do not exist.

A's drinking is not the ruler of my life , I am .  So , I have no need to be scared ! I am free!